everything's getting so out of hand...i just need the earth to stop spinning for a while so i can sort everything out.

Don’t you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go some place where you don’t know a soul?
— Haruki Murakami

you know what sucks? When you are so happy that you feel like nothing can bring you down, but in a blink of an eye you realize that you are wrong. That something or someone can take that happiness from you, so easy as if you just opened your hand and let it go.

well;;

I'm guess i'm one of those kids born only to achieve failure.

whoever i want

Love yourself. Never deprive yourself of happiness. When everything else fails to make you happy, it’s only you whom you can rely on to bring a smile back on your face.

personality test

­ Take The Test

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I need a reason to stay here.
I need a reason to get up in the morning
and not care that it’s raining.

-Grey’s Anatomy

You know, I don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Wherever I am, I’ll always wish I’m someplace else. Whatever I have, I’ll always want something different.

— Dawson’s Creek

need.

Her life was beginning to make sense again, although she couldn’t say she was enjoying it. But her mind was clear, and her heart was not constantly as heavy. Only when she thought about him. But she knew that in time, she’d survive it. She had done it before and would again. Eventually the heart repairs.

ell ohh vee eee_x

I believe in sleeping in. I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80. I believe in kisses on the forehead. I believe in long kisses, smiling till your cheeks hurt, and laughing until you have tears in your eyes. I believe in having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. I believe in having someone play with your hair. I believe in sitting on swings and running in the rain. I believe in miracles and random acts of kindness. I believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone. I believe in second chances. And most of all, I believe in love.”

Life Is For Living : Live It

1. Never be awful to anyone, that person you were awful to may teach you the most.
2. Always remember...you are a somebody, God didn't take the time to create a nobody.
3. Always smile, you never know whose day you might be making.
4. Never 'forget' to say hi to anyone, never miss the chance to laugh or smile, never get too caught up in yourself that you forget to help others.
5. Never forget that you aren't the only one with problems, and most of all...never forget that when you feel like you only have one friend, that friend will remind you of all the others.
6. If you forget about all the bad things in life, the good will take over.
7. If fear is staring you in the face, close your eyes so you don't have to look at it.
8. Be yourself, you can't be anyone else...The best you can be is you!

i don't know if this is going to make sense

... but sometimes i wish i could just sit down with someone and look straight into their eyes and tell them everything, every wish i’ve ever made every dream i’ve ever had, my idea of a perfect day and childhood memories, anything and everything that i think is important. just let it all out, let my thoughts go straight to my voice without them being processed and scanned and edited until i’ve finally run out of things to say. i waste so much time talking about things that don’t matter in the long run, stupid, unimportant things. i forget those conversations but it’s the ones about life and beauty and love that i remember, those are the ones that matter. i want to tell them about my ideal photograph or what i want my future to be like or what i picture my first relationship to be like or to describe the house i lived in until i was seven or what it is that makes me cry. i’m so young but sometimes i feel like i could explode or collapse or burst under all this pressure of who i want to be and who i am and who i was because it’s all bouncing around my mind and my heart and i can feel it but i can’t let it out. i want to talk about important things, serious things, things that mean something but i can never find the right words, the right people, the right time.

wow...

Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you're here.

- IWTFY

Know yourself fully before making promises to another. Make many mistakes so you’ll know the right decision when it really matters. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often, and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Never mislead anyone, especially yourself. Have the courage to admit when you’re wrong. Awaken to the brilliance of ordinary moments. See goodness in the world. Strive to be your best. Be bold. Be grateful. Be wild and gloriously free. Be you.

Jeanette LeBlanc

you make me smile;;please stay for a while

i know im full of insecurites and disappointments;
but i promise you theres a part of me worth keeping

decide to just not give a fuck;;and you wont

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact

believe that you have it and you have it

believe that everything is always getting better

i love sleep my life has the tendency to fall apart when im awake; you know?

nothing's bigger than love

love fiercily
love yourself
let others love you
be kind
cherish what is lovely
&accept what is not
seek beauty in everyday
persone
&object
do what you love
&love what you do
be open with the one you love
be alive &beutiful &whole
give yourself credit
love,love,love without end

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world, it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isnt anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

its truly deafening

Silence is loud when all you hear is your heart.

Depression is a funny thing. It isn’t a black cloud, or a weight on your shoulder, not anymore. Depression, like everything else, has evolved. It’s the voice in the back of your mind that asks why you should bother to get out of your warm bed in the morning, and not even caring whether or not anyone would miss you.

do it;;please

The best thing you can ever do for me when I'm down is say "Tell me what's wrong". It's hard for me to do, but keep asking. Because I really want to tell you, I just need you to ask.

-IWTFY

i really don't know who i am.
i really don't know where i stand.
all i know is
everything's changed;
yet nothing's changed at all.

You think you’re waiting for help. For someone to tell you what the right thing to do is. Even though, at the back of your mind, you already know what that is. So all you’re really waiting for, is a time when you’re forced to do it.

-IWTFY
this just recently happened to me;;
not sure if its a good thing yet.

soil,soil

All you need to save me: call.
And I’ll be curled on the floor hiding out from it all.
And I won’t take any other call.

You were happy once; you were sunshine and smiles and a brightness that radiated. You may be cloudy now, you may not want to sing. You may just want to fold inside of yourself, on the oldest couch you can find, by the biggest window, and watch it rain.

i think i took some things from i wrote this for you a while back;;
but i cant remember - anyway all credit goes to you

no one sees it. but my heart fucking hurts. all the damn time.
i’m crying now. you didn’t know that, did you?

sucidal tendencies

I’m standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more I can take.

im trying

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh till your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.

if you knew how i felt you'd call an ambulance...

Ashlee And The Paper Boys Rountine (This Is For You)

I'm not a poet I'm just troubled in the head,
This isn't a song of love it's a song about wanting you dead.
I've got good news and I've got bad news,
Good news is I've died, bad news is only on the inside.

I'm taking aim and I'm thinking back,
I'll never you know the feelings that I've possessed.
Because you're the only one I want to kiss
But to kill at the same time.

Hold your breath, don't get your hopes up
But this hold your breath, this is for you and this for you.

where though??

You fit in. Maybe not here, but somewhere on this earth there’s a whole bunch of people just like you. So what are you waiting for? Find them, because when you find people you fit in with, chances are, there’s someone who’s meant to be with you. And everybody needs to find who their meant to be with.

life

Get into awkward situations.
Go talk to the person you like.
Confront those with problems.
Speak your mind to the person you've got something to say about;;
not to other people about them.
Do stuff that scares you.
Don't be shy. Don't get nervous.
Push hard for better things in life.
Strive to be the best you can, even if it involves daunting tasks.
Be blunt. Ask for freebies. Never be embarrassed.
Trust God with everything and it'll all go according to plan.

The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself.

-Mark Twain

the middle;by jimmy eat world

So; please, just be patient. I’m so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who can get through everything, but inside I’m very fragile. I’ve had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I’m afraid of is shattering.

-i love this is song;;its inspiring!

I think everybody just needs someone to believe in them. Someone to think they’re beautiful, someone to think they’re amazing. That way, people may actually start believing in themselves.

im waiting for this

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t. But then one day you feel something else, something that feels wrong, only because it’s so unfamiliar. And in that moment you realize you’re happy.

-One Tree Hill
this is my favorite show;;i need to find what episode this is...

i hate that time before you go to sleep at night, cause that’s when all the thoughts you’ve been trying to avoid start to linger in your mind.

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

i've discovered a secret to life.

What you need is just to find somebody else who can fill that deep aching hole insidethat you are always trying to kick dirt over and pretend isn’t there.

— The Summer Fletcher Greel Loved Me

I don't like being around people who are self conscience, your life isn't going to get any better by moping around about your looks, if you don't think you are beautiful then you're dumb, if you are in a human form you're so lucky because you could've been born an ugly Clofdorp on planet Ching Chong, you're beautiful, don't believe the hype. You only have one body, so take care of it. The mistakes you make now that you're younger will stick with you for the rest of your life. Take charge, and stop playing the victim, be the hero and make your own happy endings.

- i found this on someones myspace;;i think its beautiful and so was he.

You know when you’re sitting on a chair
and you lean back so you’re just on two legs
then you lean too far and you almost fall over
but at the last second you catch yourself?
I feel like that all the time.

just breathe

i'm determined to love each day more than im afraid of it...

how much time??

She was sad, though.

But it was a hopeful kind of sad.

The kind of sad that just takes time.

die awayyy

So I thought, maybe if I stayed quiet long enough, nothing would have to change.
But being quiet for so long, eats at you. And you slowly die away.

hope in a hopeless world.

your gorgeous.

dont let anyone tell you differently; or make you think otherwise about your self.

you are
if you're convinced yourself that you're unattractive or ugly;scrap that bullshit.
if you haven't been in a relationship or no one seems to be interested;it doesn't mean a thing.

strangers,acquaintances.
they're shielded by what they don't know.
to me;your stunning.

you may feel so below all of the beautiful men and woman
that bless our tv screens;movies theaters;and computers

but you're equally as gorgeous.
you, yourself.

everything about you; makes me never want to look away.

& all she needs right now is for him to;;

wrap her up in his arms,
look her in the eyes,
and tell her he w o n ’t give up.

you put a smile on my face;;your unforgettable baby

sometimes i watch when your talking;
i cannot hear a word but i smile inside<3

im almost there

love is when you miss him even before you part when you could listen to him talk all night and never get tired of hearing his voice when the sound of his name will send chills down your spine and you see his smile the second you close your eyes.