Just let me hold you for a couple more minutes.
That’s what’s gonna fix me.

-One Tree Hill

I am so sick of making it look like I can deal with everything that is going on in my life right now. I can't do it anymore. I'm sinking, fast.

what is this song???? i know its by taylor swift

so dim that spotlight, tell me things like "i can’t take my eyes off of you." i’m no-one special, just another wide eyed girl who’s desperately in love with you.

• The name of Myranda has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world.
  
• Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions.
  
• You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people.
  
• Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long.
• Although the name Myranda creates the urge to understand others, we emphasize that it limits your vision, tuning you to technical details.
  
• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid and elimination system.

blogsecret

I'm scared of myself.
I'm scared of the things I'm going to do.
I'm scared of the things I'm constantly thinking.
I'm going crazy;
and I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do to change it.

gives me hope♥

When you love someone that much and that person is away from you, sometimes it literally feels like you can’t breathe, as if your body is aching for air. And then that person walks into the room, and all that ache inside of you, all that longing, dissolves and you feel yourself breathe again. But it’s as if he takes the same breath with you. You’re both one.

-Diane Les Becquets, Love, Cajun Style
awww

When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.

-Harriet Beecher Stowe

And I’m worried.. I’m afraid that he took away my ability to believe. And I hate him for that. Because I always believed before. And now I just feel lost. And I am, I’m trying to put myself out there, but, I feel hopeless.

-Sex and the City

She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.

-Neil Gaiman

I know what it’s like to want to die, how it hurts to smile, how you try to fit in but you can’t, how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside.

- Girl, interrupted

But holding people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesn’t make you strong. If anything it makes you weaker, because you’re doing it out of fear. ”

— Sarah Dessen

I live my own life and nurse my own wounds. It’s not the best way to live. But it’s the way I am.

— Jeffrey Eugenides, Middlesex

You have options. You can either continue to be miserable or you can just stop being angry at everyone and accept the way things are. Allow yourself to live.

— Ghost Town 2008

She had become accustomed to being lonely. She was used to walking alone and to being considered different. She did not suffer too much. ”

— A Tree Grows In Brooklyn, Betty Smith

You wanna know what living life to the fullest actually is? It’s waking up on a Monday morning with no complaints. It’s knowing you always deserve to laugh. It’s doing what feels right no matter what. It’s doing what you want to no matter how stupid you look. It’s about being yourself, because no one can tell you you’re doing it wrong.

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself that you tasted as many as you could.

— Louise Erdrich

better than this

i wish i could just dissect my life and throw away all the parts that make me unhappy.

I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way.

— Away From Her

If someone breaks your heart, just punch them in the face. Oh sure, it seems obvious now, but you'd be amazed at how many people don't think of it when it's relevant. Seriously, just punch them in the face and go get some ice cream.

That is what books are for, to travel without moving an inch.

-The Namesake
♥going to the library today

there's no worse feeling than when you wake up, and feel okay for a minute, and then that sick feeling washes over you and you remember it's not okay, you're not okay.

Take a chance because you never know how absolutely perfect something could turn out to be.

Sometimes it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself.

— Sarah Dessen

THIS

I don’t have a fear of commitment; I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close. I get confused, I don’t understand all of it. But I keep pushing because I have hope in this thing - the universe. There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants it this bad. If I want it, someone else out there must too.

the problem isn’t that people change. it’s that they changed and you haven’t. the problem is that you still feel the same.

That’s life. If nothing else, its life. It’s real, and sometimes it fucking hurts, but it’s sort of all we have.

-Garden State

Who wants that? I’d rather choose to fall in love and be hurt. Sometimes I can’t even sleep because I love someone so much. And there’s always sadness in our lives. It’s that sad feeling that keeps us going. Because if we can overcome that sadness, we can hope for happiness in the future.

-House

Someone who thinks death is the scariest thing doesn't know a thing about life.

i can’t help it.

all i want to do is curl up and cry.

i do not dare to question or ask, “why me?” because i know everything happens for a reason. the emptiness, the pain in my soul is extremely unbearable and i don’t think it will ever go away.

When you don’t have love, it is like there’s a party going on and everybody was invited except for you, and you just happen to walk by that house in the rain.

-Dane Cook
not the funny part

I try to be strong, telling myself it’s just another day. sometimes, it gets so hard.

What we have here is a dreamer.
Someone completely out of touch with reality.
When she jumped she probably thought she could fly.

— The Virgin Suicides

It’s as if your mind has gone blank
As if your feelings are no longer under your control but rather out of control
As if your losing the little energy that helps you going each day
As if you are dead inside and your own brain has shut down
But somehow you are able to move, but not to feel. ”

— S.E.E.V

She stood, in a room of crumbling plaster, pressed to the window-pane, looking up at the unattainable form of everything she loved. She did not know the nature of her loneliness. The only words that named it were: This is not the world I expected.

-Ayn Rand

im driving, im flying
im heading somplace new;
your distant, im fading
my heart is black and blue.

-runner runner

It’s weird, like when you’re in love, all of a sudden you’re hearing in these love songs all like for the first time, you know, like the singer is suddenly just talking to you alone, reading your mind … and when you’re grieving it’s the same thing. I’m in tune with all the sadness of the universe suddenly. You know, songs find you, poems find you, people find you.

you sit there in your h e a r t a c h e
waiting on some beautiful b o y to
to s a v e you from your old w a y s.

-the killers

Take wrong turns. Talk to strangers. Open unmarked doors. And if you see a group of people in a field, go find out what they are doing. Do things without always knowing how they’ll turn out. You’re curious and smart and bored, and all you see is the choice between working hard and slacking off. There are so many adventures that you miss because you’re waiting to think of a plan. To find them, look for tiny interesting choices. And remember that you are always making up the future as you go.

—Randall Monroe

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see.
They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea.

motivation.

Wake up. Get out of bed and stop hiding under the duvet, no matter how warm it is. You will get nothing accomplished. Put some clothes on. Wear the red tights with the mustard yellow shoes. Arrange the 3 day old curls in your hair. Do something nice for yourself today. Get pretty for absolutely no reason other than to prove to yourself that you’re not worthless and sloven. Go to your favorite record store and listen to the old man’s playlist that usually consists of Howlin’ Wolf and strange 60s Middle Eastern music. Buy yourself your favorite garlic and tomato burrito, and make sure you get extra guacamole. Drive past Emily Dickinson’s house and imagine the lack of life she had. Spend the extra money on your favorite art magazine and plan a trip to Sweden in your head. Sing your favorite songs in your car. Make a pit stop to the reservoir. Collect the last leaves from autumn. Watch the sun sink into the horizon.
Don’t stare at your phone and wait for it to vibrate. Don’t mope. Don’t think about the only men in your life that have belittled you this week. Don’t sit. Don’t wait. Don’t look at the time that you’ve always set to three hours behind. Don’t delay your life even though someone has attempted to delay yours.

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

— The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Today

I am the saddest ray of sunlight floating on the ocean waves and the city skies.
When you have run out of words to describe how and why your heart is aching, and you only want to keep sleeping sleeping sleeping and wake up only when a definite end is there, what do you do?

Today my heart is heavy and shadowed and not even the clarity of water can make me come out and shine bright, with hands held high. No, today I hide under the covers.

I just need to know that someone out there listens,
and understands, and doesn't try to sleep with people even if they could have.
Someone out there doesn't lie to you when it's convenient for them.
Someone out there wants to fall in love even if they'll have to wait forever.
I just need to know that particular someone exists

Sometimes we feel complete, like we’ve found a place to stand; other times we just, we feel lost.. lonely.. like something is missing. Me? I feel like something is missing, but I’ll put on my smile and I’ll do my job. I’ll laugh and be okay. Because well.. that’s what we do isn’t it?

-Arminda Meer

The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - that you’d thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you’ve never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it’s as if a hand has come out, and taken yours.

-the history boys

It was kind of like automatic pilot; I just shut down and retreated, my brain clicking off before anything that hurt could sink in. ”

— Sarah Dessen, Keeping the Moon

Alone isn't always lonely.
Just sometimes.

It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces.

If it takes away the pain, its alright.

I'd like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark. If no one knows you, no one cares, so no one breaks your heart.