trufax

I don't think I'm good enough. I'm not pretty enough for the guy I love to love me back, I'm not smart enough to make my parents happy, I'm not funny or witty enough to get the good kind of attention. I'm just not good enough...

All I want is one person. For one person that isn't fooled by this mask i wear. Looking like I don't care, but just because I don't talk about it doesn't mean it isn't in my head and thinking about it. One person to force me to say how I really feel.

People think I’m lying about being hurt because they see me laughing. Little do they know I laugh to keep from crying.

Eventually you just have to realize that you’re living for an audience of one. I’m not here for anyone else’s approval.

-Pamela Anderson

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

And then i felt sad because i realized that once people are broken in certain ways they can't ever be fixed and this is something that nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one You wonder when your turn is going to come, or if it's already happened.

People put you down enough you start to believe it.
the bad stuff is easier to believe, you ever notice that?

tryyy

today is already depressing

my eyes have been so sad lately.

i wish i was pretty. i wish i was smart. i wish i was good at something. i wish i had friends that actually liked me. i wish i was doing something with my life. i wish i knew what i want in the future. i wish i got good grades. i wish people liked me. i wish i remember what its like to laugh, really really laugh. i wish i was older. i wish i was perfect. i wish i wasn't such a whiny bitch.

you walk around like you're okay. maybe you're not, at least not today. the sun's not shining, but there's no rain. this feeling of missing you is driving me insane.

and shes the kind of girl who looks so tough but deep down inside shes contemplating suicide.

it's 4 a.m. & she's staring at the ceiling
trembling at the thought of feeling
on the edge of everything she's ever known
trying hard not to fall once again
but knowing that she's wedged between
between a rock & a razor
not knowing which one she'd rather face
learned to smile when she's broken inside
learned to laugh when she's tempted to cry
eyeliner and mascara masks her heart
skin tight jeans keep her from falling apart
she's learned to live when she feels like dying
& getting over him is a phase, she's trying
but sometimes you just can't let go
he makes everything wrong but she just can't say no.

up until now i swore to myself that I'm content with loneliness,
because none of it was ever worth the risk.

how about in the next 5 minutes

when life is so difficult & complicated, then suddenly you’re dead…;; I wish that I’m that lucky

Sometimes you just feel empty, lonely, insignificant. And it doesn’t matter what you do, no it doesn’t matter how many laps you run, musicals you join, classes you skip or how many pairs of shoes you buy - you still feel like crap. Sometimes i just feel like taking off, selling everything I own and running away to somewhere so distant, running away into the unknown.

All I want is a best friend. Not even that, just someone who cares.

you never get over it. but you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much.

-the virgin suicides

She was a girl who knew how to act happy even when she was sad, and that’s important.

-Marilyn Monroe

maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt so much.

you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone

-taylor swift

Half of my life is fucking up, the other half is dealing with it.

I'm tired now from the inside out;
And nothing can stop the war that I've started with myself.

life is designed to kick your ass

Be strong now because things will get better.
It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.

Could you be my savior, been out here too long
When I've just been looking for somewhere to belong
Barely holding on
So can you save me now?

When the stars explode
And I'm all alone
When they start to see the smoke
When I've finally burned out
I'll need someone to carry me home, safe and sound

-boys like girls

someday i'll understand...hopefully

I wanna feel weightless and that should be enough

but I'm stuck in this fucking rut
waiting on a second hand pick me up
and I'm over, getting older
if i could just find the time
then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting older

and maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year
and I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
and this is my reaction to everything I fear
cause i've been going crazy
I dont wanna waste another minute here

-all time low

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

-the script

could be an organ donor
the way i give up my heart.

-andre 3000

The sound of a heart breaking isn’t poetic. It is hollow. It is tragic. It calls for rituals – the denial, the shock, the anger, the disappointment, culminating in hopelessness. Just like a shrinking white star slowly collapsing inwardly, with memory drawn from every breath a blow. It’s like death without the sleeping part.

-elle Posted by Le Love

tell my mom this!!!!

Dont feel guilty if you dont know what to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still dont.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Life's Instructions

1. Have a firm handshake.
2. Look people in the eye.
3. Sing in the shower.
4. Own a great stereo system.
5. If in a fight, hit first and hit hard.
6. Keep secrets.
7. Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday.
8. Always accept an outstretched hand.
9. Be brave. Even if you're not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.
10. Whistle.
11. Avoid sarcastic remarks.
12. Choose your life's mate carefully. From this one decision will come 90 per cent of all your happiness or misery.
13. Make it a habit to do nice things for people who will never find out.
14. Lend only those books you never care to see again.
15. Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all that they have.
16. When playing games with ! children, let them win.
17. Give people a second chance, but not a third.
18. Be romantic.
19. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
20. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life-and-death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems.
21. Don't allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It's there for our convenience, not the caller's.
22. Be a good loser.
23. Be a good winner.
24. Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret.
25. When someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go.
26. Be modest. A lot was accomplished before you were born.
27. Keep it simple.
28. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose.
29. Don't burn bridges. You'll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river.
30. Live your life so that your epitaph could read, No Regrets
31. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on life, you'll regret the
32. things you didn't do more than the one's you did.
33. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
34. Remember no one makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who helped you.
35. Take charge of your attitude. Don't let someone else choose it for you.
36. Visit friends and relatives when they are in hospital; you need only stay a few minutes.
37. Begin each day with some of your favorite music.
38. Once in a while, take the scenic route.
39. Send a lot of Valentine cards. Sign them, 'Someone who thinks you're terrific.'
40. Answer the phone with enthusiasm and energy in your voice.
41. Keep a note pad and pencil on your bed-side table. Million-dollar ideas sometimes strike at 3 a.m.
42. Show respect for everyone who works for a living, regardless of how trivial their job.
43. Send your loved ones flowers. Think of a reason later.
44. Make someone's day by paying the toll for the person in the car behind you.
45. Become someone's hero.
46. Marry only for love.
47. Count your blessings.
48. Compliment the meal when you're a guest in someone's home.
49. Wave at the children on a school bus.
50. Remember that 80 per cent of the success in any job is based on your ability to deal with people.
51. Don't expect life to be fair.

The truth is, we hide because we want to be found. We walk away to see who will follow. We fall to see who will come pick us up. We cry to see who will wipe away our tears and we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.

& you might think i'm bulletproof; but i'm not

you have within you, right now, everything you need to deal with whatever the world can throw at you.

-i dont think so...